I'm geeking over this.  Seriously.  Wednesday can't get here quick enough.  I've always been a Beatles fan (to the dismay of my mom and dad, who is a Stones fan and Dead Head, respectively), but this summer...I can't get enough.  I went to the Paul McCartney concert over in CitiField in July and my idle appreciation of the Beatles' music has suddenly become a full blown obsession.  At the concert itself, it blew my mind the sheer number of people there who were singing to EVERY SONG.  I've always known every song...but to actually hear a stadium of others singing along (Give Peace a Chance, Hey Jude, and Let it Be turned into audience participation sing-a-longs full stop...couldn't even hear him over the crowd) gave me chills.  Haven't stopped since and there seems to be no looking back.

Tags: concert, obsessions, rockband, the beatles, wii
Current Mood: bouncy

I just got home from seeing Paul McCartney live in Citi Field. Oh, I can't even describe how much fun it was!!! He's such an amazing performer, and so geniunely loves the audience and what he does. He did almost entirely Beatles songs...and did it brilliently. Love, love, love. My throat is sore from screaming my head off and singing along. I'm too keyed up right now to even describe this, but this should say it all....

Tags: amazing, concert, paul mccartney, wow

Guess where I'm going?!?!

SO FREAKIN EXCITED!

Tags: ahhh, citi field, paul mccartney, rl
Current Mood: bouncy

I've started a monster.

When I first came up with the idea of creating a Harry Potter vid series to all the songs and storyline of Across the Universe, it was fairly camp and cutesy.  Now, curtesy of the ever-encompassing lyrics of the Beatles, it's turned a bit epic.  It's fairly safe to say that when "I am the Walrus" turns into an anthem for Voldemort's life, you've lost your mind.

In other songs; Neville is Badass as Jo-Jo (the guy who's an allusion to Jimi Hendrix in the movie)..."Come Together" became about his triumph over Bellatrix in the end.  "Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds" takes on a literal meaning when you make Luna your Lucy.  "Why Don't We Do It In the Road" becomes tongue-in-cheek when Sadie is played by Ginny.  I've become rather attached to my Prudence!Hermione as well.

I'm also very torn between finishing these videos (I'm on number 10 on what will become about 21), and waiting for HBP to come out so I may use that footage.  I'm becoming obsessed with my series and am working on it every spare minute; but I'm worried I will regret not waiting for the new stuff.

ANY ideas for these vids will be much appreciated.  I'm working on "I am the Walrus" now, which, like I said, became an anthem for Voldemort.  It was going to start as the Weasley Twins against the establishment, but the beginning lines "I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together" screamed the little identity crisis between Harry and Tom to me when I played it.  As the song alludes to Alice and the Walrus and Carpenter poem, it seemed fitting that Voldemort become the Walrus, talking to Harry about his life.  The Order became the 'pretty little policmen in a row'; the Ministry is the Corporation...lots of possibilities there.


 

( a RL update... )

 

Tags: decisions, hp, jump, life, rl, vids, work
Current Mood: pensive

So, I've been giving some serious thought to making a hp fanvid-series of sorts.  I want to make a Harry/Luna (plus others) series to the Across the Universe storyline.  My tentative cast would be:

Lucy--Luna
Jude--Harry
Max--Ron?
Sadie--Ginny
Jo-Jo--Neville
Prudence--Hermione

And not a main character, but Snape would be Mr. Kite and Dumbledore perhaps Paco (the anti-war rioter).  The war in Across the Universe would be paralleled by war with Voldemort.

I've been trying to outline and go through all the songs I would have to do (for something this big, I need some finite planing)...and I realized that this would end up compromsing of 34 videos.  That's pretty fucking ambitious, even for me.  I think I'm going to try to cut this down quite a bit...just the most important and plot-friendly songs.

1. Trailer
2. Girl--Harry
3. Hold Me Tight--Luna (perhaps her boyfriend going off to war will be Cedric?  Unsure yet) and Cho (about Harry)
4. I want to Hold Your Hand (Hermione, perhaps about Fleur)
5. With a Little Help From my Friends (Ron and Harry)
6. I've Just Seen a Face (Harry/Luna)
7. Come Together (Neville)
8. Why Don't We Do It In The Road? (Ginny)
9. Dear Prudence (about Hermione and her books perhaps)
10. I Am The Walrus (not sure who's going to play Bono...the Twins?)
11. Being For the Benefit of Mr. Kite (Snape...definitely Snape.  It would amuse the HELL out of me)
12. Because (whole cast)
13. Oh! Darling (Ginny/Neville love)
14. Strawberry Fields (Harry/Luna, perhaps either onesided Ron/Hermione or I will just make Ron a solider afterall)
15. Revolution (DA)
16. Across the Universe (Harry/Luna allusions to Harry vs Voldemort/Ministry)
17. Helter Skelter (Ginny and DA again)
18. Hey Jude (Harry and Ron)
19. Don't Let me Down (Neville and Ginny)
20. All You Need is Love (whole cast)

What the hell am I embarking on??!!  This is a video-bunny that just won't leave me alone, so I know eventually I'll attempt it.  It'll just take me forever to finish. 

Tags: ahhh, ambition, vids
Current Mood: creative

The Canada car didn't quite pan out.  The owner started asking odd questions that had nothing to do with getting the car to me.  I felt uncomfortable, so I cancelled the arrival of that car.  Since then, I've continued my search--though with a bit more caution. 

It's very difficult to find a car I fit into...I test drove lots.  A Mazda6, which was a comfortable fit, but WAY to technologically advanced for me.  I felt like I was in the batmobile, for all it's little knobs and do-dads.  I tested a Chevy Cobolt, which was also a good fit, but I only drove for like a minute.  The moment I sat behind the wheel, I got goosebumbs...some instinctual thing was SCREAMING at me to get out of the car, fast.  I don't understand that little intuition I get, but I've spent enough time with my Grandma (who also gets those same little 'instincts') to know to obey it without question or logic.  The Civic's dash was too high for me to see out of properly.  I pretend to contemplate, mostly for the amusement of my family, getting a Hummer.  I would OWN the road.  I would also need a fireman's pole to get out of it, as the bottom of the thing came to my waist.

Finally though...on Saturday, my mom and I planned a whole day of cars.  We had 8 we printed offline and planned to go to each dealer and see them.  Minutes before we left, I checked autotrader.com once more.  A car had been posted just 2 minutes before I went on.  A little rocketship looking thing--Chevy Aveo.  We decided to add it to the list, though it would be the last we saw, as we were going by geography.  The first place we went had 2 we wanted to see; but we got lost and even after calling the place and getting very concise directions, couldn't find it.  We decided it was a sign it wasn't meant to be.  The third, fourth, and fifth car had been sold.  The sixth I couldn't see well out of.  The seventh and eighth were a bit more expensive then I was comfortable with, plus the salesman was an ASSHOLE.  He suggested a Focus hatchback.  I personally don't like the look of hatchbacks and told him so.  HE ROLLED HIS EYES AT ME.  I said right to him, "Did you just roll your eyes at me?" He just got a bit flustered and I turned away and dragged my mom to the car, saying loudly, "We're done here!" I don't need that.

The last car was the Aveo, a 'pastel blue' (read: Easter Egg blue).  The salesman was an absolute doll.  I test drove it and fell in love instantly.  I brought him home two days later; last night.  His name is Kayden.  I'm going to miss my Zacky baby, whom I've traded in.  He was my first car, and I'll love and remember him for that always.  Hopefully he'll go to someone who will love him too.  He'd still be a good, solid first car for some kid, once he's fixed up a bit.  I'm SOOO excited about Kayden.  I drove him home last night, though, and of course it starts raining.  I didn't know where the windshield wipers were yet, so that was a bit of an experience.  He has powerseats...seats that go up and down, which is SUCH a good thing for me.  Now, the air bags are at least aimed at my chest, rather than my head.  I'm so happy. 

Tags: car, kayden, life, zacky
Current Mood: giddy

My car, my precious Zacky, is an sweet old thing.  But, he's in fact quite old.  I've babied him for awhile, but the truth is I'm just not willing to put any more money into him.  He's a good car, an old gentleman of a car...he never breaks down suddenly, and always warns me ahead of time that he's sick and needs to be taken to the shop.  He's whined at me that he's sick, I've taken him in, and been informed that if I had driven even 10 minutes more, he would have broken down.  He's sweet like that.  He was my first car and I adore him for that.  But, he's getting sick agan, and I took him in and discovered that I'd have to put a huge amount of work into him.  I'm just not willing anymore.  I have enough money right now that I can get a new used car (especially for what they are selling at these days, since the economy's so bad).  I've been shopping around for a while--it's not a desperate pressing need (I've been treating Zack extra gentle), so I have time to be picky.

Perhaps a little backstory of how I obtained Zacky would show that I'm not as crazy as I must sound in the story below (or perhaps crazier).  After I got my liscense, I went car shopping.  This is quite difficult for me.  I'm 5'0".  I have a hard time seeing over steering wheels and pedals without being literally on top of the wheel.  I'm scared of airbags, which would kill me instantly since I have to sit so close to them.  One day, I was reading the paper, and I saw just a small little add that just said "Geo Prizm. '97. Blue."  That's it, then the sellers phone number.  It was my car, and I knew it right then and there it was my car.  I called him up.  He was selling the car for a friend of his in a different state, a nun, who was getting too old to drive.  She was this man's spiritual adviser.  He was a palm reader two towns from where I was.  I convinced my mom to drive up there.  I bought Zacky on the spot without ever driving him.  It was my car, and that's all I needed to know.  The palm reader gave me a blessing card from the nun, and it's stayed in the glove compartment ever since.

Earlier this week, I was on a website browsing used cars...and fell in love with one.  Immediately.  I know this is my car.  I know it like I knew Zacky was my car.  It had a picture this time, at least, nine of them to be exact.  I emailed the owner.  The owner just moved here from Canada for a new job, which includes a new car.  The car is still in Canada.  He is willing to ship it to me (free of shipping charge, but I have to pay the cost of the car).  I can preview it for 3 days, and decide from there.  He has a full return and refund policy in case I don't like it.  It's my car.  My car is arriving from Canada next week.  My mother is furious with me--she thinks I've lost my freakin mind.  Maybe I'm taking a big leap of faith here...but it just feels right.

Wish me luck!

Tags: car, crazy, rl
Current Mood: optimistic

I turned 21 last Tuesday (and was, apparently, a pretty wretched 21 year old, as I didn't go out and drink myself dead). I got a drawing tablet! So excited. So, after numerous bad attempts, I was able to learn to control it enough to do some basic sketches and put my Photoshop to good use on the rest.

Figured I'd share my first real fanart...Harry/Luna, of course. This little scene occurred to me after reading a (innocent) fic about them taking a walk through the forest in the moonlight. I can quite easily imagine them finding a little clearing to get comfy in. (Warning: partial nudity (waist up).

( Art That Currently Has No Name )

I'm ok with it...I wish it came out a bit darker, mystical looking. And Harry's neck and eye irritate me (plus his arm kept coming out a bit thicker then I liked). But I'm quite happy with the coloring. I'm hoping the swirls and sparkles around them add to a magical effect, rather then just covering the fact that I can't draw feet to save my life. ;)

Kinda goes in with an idea I've been toying with...making a H/L fanvid series to the soundtrack of Across the Universe...with Harry and Luna as Jude and Lucy.  Neville might be Jo-Jo and Ginny Sadie (though I'm debating Neville as either Jo-Jo or Prudence...)

Tags: birthday, fanart, h/l, hp, photoshop, possible vids, tablet, thoughts
Current Mood: contemplative

My manager was transferred to another store yesterday--one that was three hours away and in another state. I'm a bit devastated. She's a great person, and only a few years older than me, so we were more friends then boss/worker. We have the same sick sense of humor and cynacism, and we are both way more ambitious and cutthroat then anyone would ever expect out of two decidedly innocent-looking twenty-something women.

She didn't want the transfer, but was given no choice, although it's considered a 'promotion' (I'm sorry, but isn't it necessary to accept a promotion to recieve one?!). She was crying probably half the day yesterday, and I don't think either us got much work done. She said goodbye to me last, in the office, and we both started crying like a couple of little girls. What really got me was her, "You!! I can't say goodbye to you!" and hugging me, then grabbing my arms and shaking me, "I want you to know how proud I am of what you did at custom frames. Taking it from Fiona and her glitter and feathers and you turned it around. But you and I both know you've done what you needed to here. I hope you get that job and run everyone there in circles the way you do here!" I told to her a few days ago that I applied for a graphic arts job and was waiting to hear back--she wasn't happy about the possibility of me leaving, but she did wish me a lot of luck. We both lost it a bit after that. I remember wishing her a lot of luck and to bring the monster staple gun and voodoo kit I got her for Christmas with her to her new store if she feels she needs to make an odd, intimidating first impression. Lots of hugging and crying...

It sucks that we didn't even have more than a few hours notice to say goodbye. Our new manager starts Monday--she used to be an assistant manager in our store about two years ago. She's quite rough, but has a good heart--but a lot of people will be quitting most likely because of her abrasive nature.

While I've been toying with leaving for a while and moving on with my life, this *hopefully* will give me the push and confidence I needed to make some real decisions. My manager, who I've told all of my quandries about working there to, has worked for this company since SHE was 16, the same age I started, and climbed the ranks much the same rate I did, albeit in different positions. She hates the company as much as I do, but understands the sentimental attachment I have to it in every possible way. She once told me very straight forewardly that she'd never forgive me if I went the same way as her just 'cuz I was scared to try anything else. It's one thing to want it, because I know I could get my own store in a few years if I was motivated, but it's another entirely to go for it just because I'm terrified of what else may be out there for me.

Tags: being grown up, change, frames, life, manager, work
Current Mood: sad

or...in which I'm brutally honest about my unhealthy social tendencies.  I pride myself on my honesty and my acceptance of the way I am.  Doesn't mean I don't scare myself sometimes though...

I know I've must of been a bit wretched to be around.  I've been angry for no concrete reason at work, and easily frustrated at home the past few weeks.  I feel uncomfortable in my own skin, my own life.  It's like I've totally stagnated--I'm still in the same spot I was a year ago, and that scares and annoys me. 

( Work, Home, and My semi-destructive tendencies... )

I don't know what I want to do--the school I went to was a farce and I'm a bit disillusioned with graphic design after that.  I'm so bored and restless with my life right now that I need to do something.  ANYTHING.  I'm scared of quitting at the moment--the economy is too bad right now for some scatter brained and daydreaming 21 year old to do some soul searching for the right place in life.

I want to get on the road for some major life changes--I just haven't quite found the keys to the car...or the map for that matter.


In other, lighter news: I've made a new Harry/Luna vid and am working on two others (non-H/L but still HP).  It's calming.  http://www.youtube.com/user/Shadowwolf210
 

Tags: change, graphics, h/l, home, life, thoughts, vids, work
Current Mood: restless